no gods... means no monsters.

11:07am: Rva was cool. Going to asheville soon to help my friend pick up his records. no more car insurance for me. who needs it. cutting down expenses by slacking.

12:20pm: raw ass... hole too much dry
daba dooo daba dee llama dama ding dong. horse cantaree ma scmellie lackada dee.. coma roma toma ta tee.

7:40pm: who is looking to get a place?
someone who can afford it, won't fuck me over on rent, and respect space. i found a two story condo in great neck. 3 bedrooms, 2.5 baths, and a deck. all utilities included... $675/ month!!!

7:23pm: not too sure whats going on. friends are great for their hopitality. food, net, and phones.... and just being friendly.... life is a shitty thing.... but i guess thats what makes it "fun"...

10:23am: i'm so low that i wish i was dead with a knife in my chest and a bullet through my head
i'm sick of a lot of shit. sometimes things start to go good and then all collapse. so it goes.

12:24am: Yesterday i woke up sucking a lemon
You really do rule as much as I thought.

5:09pm: lastnight i saw a lot of people. i never wanted to jump in a hole so badly.

9:37am: phewwwww financial relief. "back in the game of movin' up."

9:49am: DMX! what you niggas want... DXM!

6:38pm: it would be really cool to organize the worlds largest mass suicide.

1:27am: boners
it's gettin' blazed in parking lots, staying up till 7am, sleeping till 4pm, drinking whiskey and not remembering, enjoying a comfortable pillow and your air conditioned room.

9:58am: Whether it be... drinking whiskey in an abandoned skating rink, breaking windows, sitting on abandoned building tops, going out to 80's night and turning right back around at the door, going 65 down lynnhaven with no concern for the traffic lights, or being poor as shit... it is what i am doing.

6:24pm: Come gather 'round people
Wherever you roam
And admit that the waters
Around you have grown
And accept it that soon
You'll be drenched to the bone.
If your time to you
Is worth savin'
Then you better start swimmin'
Or you'll sink like a stone
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
For the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who
That it's namin'.
For the loser now
Will be later to win
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come senators, congressmen
Please heed the call
Don't stand in the doorway
Don't block up the hall
For he that gets hurt
Will be he who has stalled
There's a battle outside
And it is ragin'.
It'll soon shake your windows
And rattle your walls
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come mothers and fathers
Throughout the land
And don't criticize
What you can't understand
Your sons and your daughters
Are beyond your command
Your old road is
Rapidly agin'.
Please get out of the new one
If you can't lend your hand
For the times they are a-changin'.

The line it is drawn
The curse it is cast
The slow one now
Will later be fast
As the present now
Will later be past
The order is
Rapidly fadin'.
And the first one now
Will later be last
For the times they are a-changin'

12:17pm: lastnight was way too fucking fun! club live alley way. the quest van. everything.

7:50pm: just got back from hatteras. it was fun. i got really shy around kugel's rather large family. i left mysteriously from the scene.

3:09am: better than dead
morphine sings the blues to a person who can't hear or sense it

12:15pm: boss said no work again today. i only worked 2 days this week. man i have no money. beach bumin'.

10:34am: i'm gonna see how the surf is before i work at 1 today. i try to be around big groups of people and i still feel weird. i will keep trying. i really dig small groups of 3-4. way better.

drove home from chelsea's as soon as people went upstairs. i saw christ sitting half-in/ half-out of someones truck. i think it may have been eric's. gave him a ride to my crib and passed out.

10:41am: what a night at sam h's. ricky bryant is the man. don't worry about anything dude.

5:22pm: 6/22 4:06 pm
writing this while driving after the lunch break:
man, it's so easy to burn time on the internet. i've been keeping the vents open for so long, i need to defrost. started to get to know some of my co-workers better. a lot of them are soccer players. come to find out one of the kids is good friends with my sister and has been over my house. i picked a gardenia flower for ramona. they smell awesome.

7:28pm: 6/21 12:38pm
I'm writing this while driving. Today I played with goose shit. I thought it was a piece of sod or soil. But this kid, Bryan, said to me, "Havin' fun playin' with the goose poo." Before my lunch break I paid my car loan and worried about driving on the donut. I got home and ate lunch. short whirlwind of chat. back to the grind.

7:26pm: 6/21 12:33 am
Lastnight I told Ramona, Chelsea, Caitlin, Rick, Mark, and Kenny that I keep a notebook of my daily itinerary. What not a better time to start

11:46pm: "Yo girl.. you tryin' to tap?"
i write things into a notebook. maybe i will start putting it on here.

past few days have been high speed. meaning a lot has been going on emotionally tied in with events. hormones. i can't start yet... it's late. i have been up for 5 hours. bed again? ya i think so.

9:37am: i had an epiphany lastnight.

1:51pm: i'm not so sure anymore.